Trapped…and Released

“Based on the information available today and the terms of the contract in force today, benefits will be available if the service is medically necessary.” Ten, twenty, thirty, forty times a day I would repeat that phrase. I was a customer service correspondent for Blue Cross and Blue Shield. I answered the phone all day long, explaining benefits, helping with medical claims that weren’t processed correctly or were misunderstood. I couldn’t answer the phone, fill out a form, or sneeze without putting a tally mark on a piece of paper so that my employer would be able to keep track of every moment of my day. I felt, with my headset attached to the phone system and my computer in front of me, like a dog on a chain. I was trapped. I must admit that for the most part, in the almost 18 years since I’ve been home with my children, that I’ve either forgotten or blocked out most of what it was like to be stuck in a job that I didn’t like, making too much money to quit, but not enough to get ahead. I was so young I didn’t appreciate the medical benefits except for maternity! I still remember the day, January 18, 1991 as my emancipation day, the day I was released! ~smile~

I think it’s good for me to remember, to appreciate the freedom I have now in comparison. No. I don’t have money to buy things I want most of the time. No, I can’t do all the things I want to, unless they’re free. Yes, it’s worth it. Being home with my children has been a wonderful privilege that my husband, God, and my willingness to go without have offered me. My children are different than they would have been if I’d been at work and they’d been at school. I thank God that I’ve been there to instill our beliefs, our faith, and our values in their lives as well as to teach them.

I also think that it’s good for me to reflect on what I would have been like, what I might have done, if not for Jesus, and on what I did do before Jesus. Our Pastor spoke Sunday about a man who killed many people at a Christmas party last week. He said that apart from Christ and the Holy Spirit in him, he could have been that man. Any one of us could have been that man. If we didn’t have Jesus, we would be at the mercy of whatever the world and Satan enticed us with. Desperation, fatigue, worry, fear, anxiety, hopelessness, anger, as well as a host of other pressures and sins would assail us.

Thank God for Jesus Christ and the work of salvation that he did at the cross. We have the opportunity to be reconciled to God, to have a clean conscience and a clean slate before Him in spite of our past sins. We have to choose to accept Jesus’ death being the payment for our sins and believe that he is resurrected, at God’s right hand in Heaven. Then, we must wash ourselves by reading the Word of God, the Holy Bible, daily, asking for God to fill us over and over with His Holy Spirit.

I need to remember what I was and what God had done for me through Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. I need to press forward, focusing more and more on God’s word and what He wants to do in me, my family, my church, and my community.

I ask God to bless you all as you think reflectively upon these things.

Thankful to be home and His

Why Celebrate Christmas?

Why do you celebrate Christmas?
As a child, I celebrated because my family did. Really, though, it was all about the presents and Santa Claus! I knew there also was a baby named Jesus that was born in away in a manger. What a lousy place! But, it gave a little drummer boy a place to go. The real action was at the North Pole with Santa, Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, and Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donder, and Blitzen. Most importantly Rudolph! Of course, we must not forget Frosty the Snowman. If only I could find a magic hat!

But…I grew up and met Jesus the Christ, not as a child, but as a man. Now I celebrate because I am so thankful for grace, salvation, forgiveness, love, kindness, and blessings from God the Father through Jesus Christ His Son, by the Power and Counsel and Comfort of the Holy Spirit.

Something to Think About…Doing it Right….

“What we forget is that following God makes us different- from unbelievers, but also from one another.  God has created each of us uniquely and for a specific purpose; and in that purpose we can dare to accomplish what he asks of us.”

-Judith Couchman Daring to Be Different

As a young mother, and as a homeschooler, I’ve often looked to other mothers to know how to DO IT right.  You know, the right way to diaper, the right way to feed a baby, the right way to dress a toddler, the right way to discipline, the right way to teach my children.

Oh my!  Did I say MY children?  Could it be that teaching their children might be a bit different than teaching MY children?  Of course!  That’s why God gave them to ME to love, nurture, protect, teach and mother.  It took me years to realize that.  I always thought anyone else could be a better mother to my children.  As time has gone by, God has shown me that it’s just not true.  God in his divine wisdom creates the children for the parents and the parents for the children.  Thank you God!

If you’re feeling unsure of yourself.  If you’re feeling like you’re not good enough.  To that I say, Pshaw!  The LORD knew what he was doing when he chose you!  No matter what the circumstances of your child’s birth, or the circumstances you now find yourself in, YOU are chosen to be your child’s momma.  Lean on God, search His WORD and learn of Him.  That’s one reason He sent His Holy Spirit, to be our teacher.  “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make straight your path.”

You CAN do this!  Yes, by all means, seek out older mothers, and your own mother for advice and support.

BUT- remember, your best advice and support come directly from the LORD and from the husband He has given you.  If you do not have a husband to love, guide, and protect you, the LORD himself is a husband to the husbandless.  Seek Him!  He’s waiting for you!

I encourage you to seek wisdom in Proverbs and in Psalms.  They are a great place to start.

May the LORD bless your mothering now and for all time.


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It’s Never Too Late to Live Happily Ever After

Have you made mistakes?  Have you messed up your life?  Do you feel like it’s just no use trying any more?  Is your life what you want it to be? 

Proverbs 13:12 states, “Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.”

I’ve made a lot of mistakes.  I’ve messed up my life.  I’ve felt like quitting.  My life is still not what I want it to be.  My heart has been sick from deferred hope.  What about you?

One thing I’m learning through the trials my family is walking through is that God’s ways are higher than my ways; His thoughts are higher than my thoughts.   It is His responsibility to take care of me and my family.  It is my responsibility to trust in Him to bring about His perfect will in my life.  My responsibility continues in that I have to seek His wisdom and choose to align myself with His perfect will.  I have to have faith that He will continue to work in our life.

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Proverbs 28:14 says,  “Blessed is the man who always fears the LORD,  but he who hardens his heart falls into trouble.”

I do not want to harden my heart toward God or His will for my life.  I want to be soft hearted so that I can hear the Holy Spirit whispering to my soul.   I have to be willing to give up my way, my ideas of what I want.  I have to submit myself completely to the Father.  Lord may it be done unto me as You have said. 

Let’s give up.  Let’s surrender to the Lord and to His perfect will for our lives.  Let’s trust Him to work it all out for our good.  He’s trustworthy.  Jesus paid the ultimate price for our sins so that we can be counted as righteous by the Father.  Let’s have faith that He cares about every part of our life and every need.   Let’s be happy before everything is perfect! 

It’s never too late to live happily ever after! 

God bless you all!


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An Awakening

I had an odd dream this morning just before I woke.  I had all the presidential candidates together to make a film with individuals asking questions and candidates answering.  I was doing it in a little cabin on the side of a mountain.  We did the Republican side without a hitch.  We were then going to do the Democratic side; but for some reason, there was a delay.  I finally began praying over the situation out loud.  Well, there seemed to be a lot of noise in the room, so I just prayed louder.  I finally prayed myself awake and my husband, too!

Well, that was a startling awakening!  I felt the Holy Spirit on me, urging me to pray for every individual candidate, not just the election results. I believe the Lord told me that we are to pray fervently as Christians for our country and leaders like we never have before.  I say we; because, I believe it was not just a message for me. 

Here are some of the things that the Holy Spirit lead me to pray for:

God would ARREST each candidate in the name of Jesus Christ. 

No matter what their religion, they would come to a salvation experience. 

That the Holy Spirit would begin to transform them into the image of Christ.  All things are possible with God.

That they would bow down to the Lord and seek His will. 

That people who call themselves Christians across this country would all have true salvation experiences, that they would all repent, and be stirred to intercessory prayer.

 This isn’t a political blog by any means.  I don’t know who I’m going to vote for.  I’m just urging you to pray like there’s no tomorrow.  Our country is split and only God can reunite us.

I repented of some things this morning.  I urge you to examine your heart; seek the Lord while He may be found; and, pray without ceasing for our country, for your family, and to be transformed by the renewing of your mind and by the washing of the word. 

As for the election results, His ways are higher than our ways.  His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.  I will pray not only for whichever candidate I finally choose, but that God’s Perfect Will will be done.

God bless you all!

God bless the U.S.A.!


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